i have been putting this one off for a while. not because it is especially hard for me to forgive people. unless its myself. i feel like this is not unusual for a lot of girls. we put so much pressure on ourselves to be and do everything.
to be a size 6. to keep your house clean and smelling pretty good. to spend equal amounts of time with each friend. spend time with family. to serve the community around you. be crafty. cook something decent. keep your legs shaved. keep learning. be fashionable. keep up with pop culture. work 8-5. figure out how kids work.
and this list goes on and on.
we can be pretty hard on ourselves. usually it gets to a point where i give up and just take a nap. (its my go to therapy). but lately i've tried to slow it down a bit (not always a choice these days). to slow it down and forgive myself if i don't get to everything on my list, if i don't do everything perfect. and just try to feel reassured that my friends won't drop me. that the politics of the world will pretty much be the same next week. that drinking a glass of tea on my back stoop without worrying about pulling weeds and taking out the trash is allowed. and if i don't exercise that day, that my non-existent muscles won't sag...
it will all be there tomorrow. and tomorrow i will be ready for it. unless its another southern tea day.